colors

have you ever taken a cd and asked to be driven somewhere and then when you got in the car and were on the road stared at the light that refracted and danced as a dozen colors on the cd. i have and i think its one of the most beautiful thing i've ever seen. it's like all the colors god gave us coming together to dance for the world. it reminds me of the colors of the elements coming to dance before the world. it's beautiful.

the dark can't hurt the healed

i've learned that the dark can hurt a broken heart. it makes it seem like the one whose hurting has been abandoned, but when someones heart is healed the person who healed it keeps the dark away whether they realise it or not. the chase away the shadows and make the lost one whole. when they are gone the shadows can return but usually the person who was hurt becomes strong and fights off the creatures of evil and they go and help the one who helped them. they heal the one who healed them and thats what i plan to do. i ask for support to help the person who made me feel whole with just a simple touch of the hand. i will help him.

saturday

saturday was an amzing day we did so good even though we weren't allowed to place in our own comp. i made new friends and made a decision that from now on i'm going to try harder at everything from being healthy to being good at expo and regulation drill. i'm glad i decided to go to comp that day cause if i hadn't i never would have met dan whose a great person. he's nice, funny, a christian, cute, and an all around great guy. plus i realized that the dark can no longer hurt my heart because it was completely repaired. by who i wont say.

great day

today was a great day i had so much fun with my friends on gaia this morning. and during 7th block we played basketball in pt. i wasn't very good but it was so much fun cause everybody was laughing and goofing off. i also got to hang out with R.E.R. today and that was fun because he's so funny and cool (and cute). i had the best 7th period ever today. *SIGH*

Break down

i am going to have a mental break down if i don't talk with a counselor today. i'm so streesed and somewhat sad. sometimes it can get really bad and i just break down and cry.

history

why is it that when your sitting in history class all of a sudden you just start feeling tired or sick. and why is it that they only teach us history every year except freshmen. i hate history its so boring and my teacher has such a monotone voice that half the kids in the class start to fall asleep.

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... its almost the Mustang drill competition. i'm so excited but i'm so nervous. i wish i was amazing at drill like some of the people on the team but alas i'm not so i can only pray that we do good and do amazing at AFA. also i'm worried about my wifey she does some stupid things sometimes and it makes me mad but i'm not really that mad i just get sad because she won't allways talk about her problems. wut to do?

OMG!!!

OMG!!! i love my life it rocks so much. yet it sucks so very much! ahh y must my life conflict so. i mean on the one hand i got to talk to this guy i have a huge crush on and create a blog, but on the other hand my boyfriend has been avoiding me for seven days now. agh wut to do?