Kilala

Today is Thursday October 17th, 2013 as of right now I am writing a memorial for my littlest cat Kilala she is Kokotenko's little sister and today she has gone missing. I don't know where she is at and I have searched the entire house. Every closet, every room, the basement and under all the beds. I just can't find her. Last night was the last time anyone saw her and no one has seen her since. I'm worried and I hope we find her but should we not this is a memorial for her.
Kilala was a small cat. She was the runt of her litter and very skirmish but she was also very frisky and when she was in the mood she would jump and play and just act so crazy. She used to do a sort of barking sound when she was watching the birds and squirrels and she was so sweet. I used to pick her up and she would always squeak but once I started petting her while she was in my arms she would purr and rub her head on my hand. She was so cute and so sweet and I will miss her every day. If yesterday was her last day then I am extremely sad and I wish I had played with her more. I love each and every pet I get and it makes me sad each time we lose one or one is taken from this world by God. I will love her always she was a sweet and a little bit snooty cat but. I will always love her.

I miss you very much Lala you will always be in my heart.

My tantrum sister

So I have a 22 year old sister who is supposed to be more mature than I am but every time something goes in my favor or even if it doesn't and she doesn't get her way she acts like a spoiled little brat. She acts as bad as my three year old nephew does sometimes. I swear I'm the youngest but sometimes I wonder who the most mature out of the three of us is. Urgh she really frustrates me. When I try to have a calm discussion with her if I even mention something she doesn't like she starts yelling and throwing a fit. She wants to act all depressing and negative and isn't trying very hard to grow up.i was at least out of my parents home for a couple months before having to move back for a little bit due to roommate trouble and then back out and living with my oldest sister now. Seriously when I do spend time back home it only stresses me out worse because she wants to argue about every little thing. I just want to know why she wants to act like a child instead of growing up some. I mean yeah I am still a little kid. I like watching family movies, or playing games, and swinging on the swing set, but do I act like a three year old. No. Why can't some people just learn to grow up?

Stressful times once more

So I don't know if I actually updated everyone on the situation about my sisters kids. Unfortunately things did not go in our favor and the judge decided to skip a step completely and put him up for adoption. Well we had a big day and the family was there for him. We do know who adopted him and we are all going to try and stay in his life. We miss him very much and I am sad to say his baby sister wasn't there to say goodbye for now to him. The judge decided that her mother was unfit which she is not, and they put her with her father. I haven't seen her since my birthday. We still have the middle child with us but my parents have to go to court in a couple days because they filed for custody without telling social services which no one said anything to them about having to do that, and now where they were trying to prevent him from being taken away the same judge that sent the other two away gets to decided to either take him out of a safe and friendly environment where he gets food he needs, a good education, day care, safe home, people who love him, church, head start during the school year, and everything he could need and put him with strangers or leave him with a family that is doing all they can to protect him and give him that good environment I just described. Also I'm living with my oldest sister now and may be starting a job this week. My boyfriend now has a car that he is fixing up and a temporary job. One of my best friends may be starting a job and I am going to see about her and I getting a place together.




Now for my geeky history fact

My nickname Lindi I got from Charles Lindbergh aka Lucky Lindy and he flew the Spirit of St. Louis in 1927 from New York to Paris. In a single turbine engine airplane.


http://www.charleslindbergh.com/plane/

Love

Love is sometimes a tough thing to deal with because sometimes with every little mistake someone may make it can be a big hurt even if they didn't mean to make a mistake or hurt you. There's also not being able to control how much you love someone. Wanting them to spend every second with you. Wanting them to know how much you care and how much you don't ever want to see them go away. I currently feel like this and I know this is real for me, and it makes me so happy that I'm in love. Even when he or I make mistakes and end up hurt. But you know sometimes when he makes a mistake it's hard for me to let it go even though I can hear myself telling me to let it go because he's the one I want to spend my life with. Love screws me up so much. I used to be able to lock all my emotions away inside me and now everytime I see him they all just seem to want to explode and let him know every feeling I have. It's confusing for me but I know that he is someone I never want to let go of. I just wish he would think sometimes about what he says. Oh well I love the big fool and I ain't letting him go.

Still waiting

So my parents had a trip this weekend and someone at church asked my middle sister when I was gonna get married. That made my mother say some things. Starting with we havn't been together long enough to get married, and it made dad all nervous about Jonathan taking the four of us out to lunch. So no surprises were sprung. So now we're gonna wait a little bit longer to tell em and I temporarily have to remove this link from facebook so that neither of my parents will look at it. So just gonna have to wait a little bit longer till we can tell them the truth.

Making Up For It

So my boy friend absolutely pissed me off yesterday and made me cry a lot, but I'm not going into the details on that, but I will tell ya how he's making up for it. Tomorrow we are having a date and going to spend the day together. We had already planned to go look at an apartment though we are still trying to figure out where it is and how to get there. He wants to take me to get a promise ring to show me how much he loves me and that he's sorry for his mistake, after that since we're not going to see the place till four thirty. We are going to have our date. Have a nice dinner and then go see a movie. Then after that I call for someone to come pick us up and take us back to my house for some time together and for he and I to finish watching Cabin in the Woods. Then probably a freeze pop each and off to sleep. Till the next morning when he's gonna stay at the house for a bit cause he's taking me and my parents out to dinner at Applebee's. Yummy. Though that one is going to be extremely interesting cause there's a secret fact I will tell you about on another day.


Till the next time anyone who reads these.

Updates

So today I filled with updates for my deviantart account Arkanan13. I love to write. I'm not to good at drawings but I am working on a little comic. I have really missed writing my stories. I actually thought of it as a career once, but I never thought I was good enough for it. I do have a friend who is a writer though she has I believe it is currently three published books. Her name is Emily Rose Ludwick and she is really cool. Today is also filled with helping my dad he is moving everything out of his little office room so that there is space enough for my nephew to have his very own bedroom.

And now for random life lesson. Sometimes we hurt ourselves trying to protect the ones we love and we don't realize we are truly hurting them.